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It's time to say goodbye

2010-01-23T13:35:00.001+08:00

Im not going to blog anymore :) do follow me on Twitter for updates. Thanks and have a great day :):)

updates

2009-11-20T21:33:00.002+08:00

Hello.. I am still alive here :D O level is looooooooooooong over. Wohooooooooo :) Okay just a week has passed!
And I have .. Slacked and slept and went out. I didn't attend RED Camp though, I was sick :( But as the saying goes, when one door closes another door opens. So true, cause ... I found a job thanks to my auntie! :D My first day was on Wednesday :)
So far so good although it was nerve-wrecking at first. Surrounded by adults.. Thank god I'm tall so i wont feel so inferior but some are really nice.

Didn't think I could be independent and do a job alone but I did it. And and thank god the job is not that tiring... I took some pictures of my workspace though HAHA cause I was bored. Will post if im not lazy :)

Ok byebye, will be MIA for now. :D
Hope you guys are having a pleasant holiday.
Dont forget to ask me out!!!

mwaks

('',)

2009-10-09T18:48:00.001+08:00

back after Os :)

can't believe its over

2009-10-09T18:27:00.004+08:00

;'( will miss a lot of things.. Will miss a lot of memories.. Will miss all those little things in school.. :( will miss the teachers. Will miss the friends. Will miss the environment the joy, the laughters..

I am definitely sad.. Very sad.. Cause I can't turn the time back , I cant relive the moment. It will never be the same.

Whats past is past. I can't go back even if i really really wanted to . I have to move on even if I'm not ready. All I have now is memories. Memories that I have to hold on very tight and very dear to me so they wont be gone forever.

Four years. Four wonderful years. We have grown we have matured. Definitely the bestest moments in my life.

Sigh I will really really really miss all those moments. Like really really :( Its just so sad you cant go back, you can't experience it anymore. Its overwhelming.

The sad truth is I have to move on, make new friends.. go to another school. I am not looking forward to that. I don't really like change.

:'(

Whatever it is, I am so so grateful to my teachers. Best bunch of teachers I've met :) Some really really passionate and nice. Some who have been with me for four years, three years. Also thank you to all my friends for tolerating me and giving me happiness. Love you guys a lot!

Time flies so fast. Today graduation day was ;( I think the teachers messagea was the trigger to our tears. Hahaha. Cengeng batch 09.

Once again, I thank all of you. :)

xoxo,
Fadilah :)
Class of o9
Ex-Unitian

51

2009-09-05T13:49:00.000+08:00

Doing what I believe.
Cherishing what I have.

:)

Love,
8)
the geek

hurray

2009-09-05T13:47:00.000+08:00

Hi Fadeee,

Sorry to respond your email late. I've just get back from my leave.

Yes, our company is halal. You may check with MUIS.

Thank You

Best Regards,
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Marketing Executive
Four Seasons Durians Pte Ltd
Tel : 6484 1619
Fax : 6481 9611

:)

stay

2009-08-28T21:47:00.002+08:00

“ Sometimes you just want to put other people’s happiness before yours because you love them, because they deserve it. Sometimes, you want to go out of your way for other people just because you know that it’s important that they get a chance to smile once in a while "

"Don't go for looks; they can deceive. Don’t go for wealth; even that fades way. Go for someone who makes you smile because it only takes a smile to make a dark day seem bright. Find the one that makes your heart smile. "

:)

its getting tough now, good luck everyone..

2009-08-16T13:26:00.000+08:00

"There comes a time when every life goes off course. In this desperate moment, you must choose your direction. Will you fight to stay on the path? Will others tell you who you are? Or will you label yourself? Will you haunted by your choice? Or will you embrace your new path? Each morning you choose to move forward or to simply give up."

-One Tree Hill

sigh

2009-08-16T13:12:00.000+08:00

Sorry for not updating. :)
Just a quick summary about my life,
prelims over, went to Bintan during national day holidays, still procrastinating, going to get my results on Monday and o levels in two months

worried, scared :(
and my orals on Wed.

but i shall be strong and handle this!

I found that that someone is ripping images from my photobucket account. Sigh :( do change please okay? I know you are reading this. TIA

Be right back :)

2009-07-23T20:09:00.000+08:00

(=

2009-07-18T18:24:00.002+08:00

uninspired and unmotivated. Can you tell?
I think I'm way behind in my studies. I really suck at maths. I really do.
Don't even know if i can achieve a distinction for my Os.
Seems possible and impossible at the same time.
My other subjects aren't gr8 either. I don't think i have time to gobble up all the facts.
I'm a stubborn learner. I like to read every single detail of my science textbook which is definitely not called studying smart.
~_~

p.s I didn't study much today. Disappointed myself again.
p.s.s Have a lot of uncompleted homework
p.s.s.s I don't want go school, rather stay at home and self study!
p.s.s.s.s Nice guys do exist, hehe :)
p.s.s.s.s.s What does PS stands for anyway??

the problem with me

2009-07-16T17:54:00.003+08:00

need someone to lift me higher to reach out for my dreams..
:( the big O... prelims
then again, should't the person be me?

keep telling myself now or never but ending up saying later.
sigh.
T_T

^-^

2009-07-11T21:26:00.001+08:00

vague

2009-07-11T21:08:00.003+08:00

thinking on ..

how can i do that, that and that in such a period of time
how to gain muscles
what to say to you
what to be
whether to go there
how to not let people walk all over me
how to be more fierce
how to earn more respect
how to be more smart
how to stop procrastinating
how to be a better person

..........

back to school

2009-06-28T15:06:00.002+08:00

:( sigh. Holiday's out, Schools IN! Prelims so near. June is not well utilized but I did went overseas for 8 days and relaxed enough. :)

Must work hard!! Lets go everybody!!
I hope this time, i really really really work hard.

:)

some people live while some people just exist

2009-06-22T21:05:00.002+08:00

I wanna live :)
Today is gr8, laugh over dumb things.. haha
Hot housing tommorow again!
70% paying attention 20% stone 10% close eyes
:)
better than talking right, anyway hard to concentrate when theres ten classes..
But yeah at least i learn something rather than to slack!
8)

follow me on twitter~
bye

:)

eagle

2009-06-22T20:07:00.004+08:00

I'm back actually. Long ago. Just can't be bothered to update much :D

Anyway here are some pictures from langkawi. Very little cause it took almost forever to load in photobucket :/
heh

We have two joining rooms with nice sea views :)

Me having the pool to myself :p

Took quite a number of boat rides..

Freshwater lake in the middle of sea water. Cool huh. Have to wear the lifejacket cause very very very deep!

One of the many beaches we visited :)

Then went to feed rabbits :) okay this post is so messy not in chronological order!

cute ^^ one of the many animals im not afraid to feed

then went to eat chendol by the beach + see sunset

I look fierce here. Wahahaa

Father

not really a sunset cause there were many clouds..

Eagle.. A lot of people like to take picture with it but got one eagle at the school hall nobody want take picture with! :p

Took the freakin scary cable car that goes so high up~!!

The views :

The ocean! I think its like at the tip of the globe. You know the rounded part before it goes down. yeah u get the idea.

bat cave..

Our rented car.. haha malaysia boleh!

Yeah i guess thats all i want upload :)

Bye langkawi!! Thanks for the experience..

Thanks big bro for being the photographer :)

:)

toodles

2009-06-11T18:17:00.001+08:00

"You never leave someone behind, you take a part of them with you and leave a part of yourself behind"

:)

feeling bleah

2009-06-11T17:41:00.003+08:00

Hello creatures of the world. I seriously don't know what to say. I have been very bored lately :) Which is good cause sooner or later I will start studying. Its about time. I keep forgetting I am taking a major exam this year. In fact, I have less than 4 months?? Shit. I really need to start worrying! That is if I can stop procrastinating. Big sigh :(

Anyways, I am going to Malaysia again tomorrow!Wonder how its like. Not really excited but I'm glad. :) So yeah have to wake up early to go to the airport. Hmm I miss the airport.. Going to miss all of you ya! :*

L is for the way you look at me..

2009-06-09T14:40:00.001+08:00

how true :)

I've learned

2009-06-08T14:06:00.002+08:00

By Omer B. Washington

I’ve learned that you cannot make someone love you.
All you can do is be someone who can be loved.
The rest is up to them.
I’ve learned that no matter how much I care,
some people just don’t care back.
I’ve learned that it takes years to build up trust
and only seconds to destroy it.
I’ve learned that it’s not what you have in your life
but who you have in your life that counts.
I’ve learned that you can get by on charm for about fifteen minutes.
After that, you’d better know something.

I’ve learned that you shouldn’t compare yourself
to the best others can do,
but to the best you can do.
I’ve learned that it’s not what happens to people,
It’s what they do about it that matters.
I’ve learned that no matter how thin you slice it,
there are always two sides.
I’ve learned that you should always talk to loved ones with loving words.
It may be the last time you’ll see them.
I’ve learned that you can keep going
long after you think you can’t.

I’ve learned that heroes are the people who do what has to be done
When it needs to be done,
regardless of the consequences.
I’ve learned that there are people who love you dearly,
but just don’t know how to show it.
I’ve learned that sometimes when I’m angry I have the right to be angry,
but that doesn’t give me the right to be cruel.
I’ve learned that true friendship continues to grow even over the longest distance.
Same goes for true love.
I’ve learned that just because someone doesn’t love you the way you want them to doesn’t mean they don’t love you with all they have.

I’ve learned that no matter how good a friend is,
they’re going to hurt you every once in a while
and you must forgive them for that.
I’ve learned that it isn’t always enough to be forgiven by others.
Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.
I’ve learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken,
the world doesn’t stop for your grief.
I’ve learned that our background and circumstances may influence who we are,
but we are responsible for who we become.
I’ve learned that just because two people argue, it doesn’t mean they don’t love each other.
And just because they don’t argue, it doesn’t mean they do.

I’ve learned that sometimes you have to put the individual
ahead of their actions.
I’ve learned that no matter the consequences,
those who are honest with themselves go farther in life.
I’ve learned that your life can be changed in a matter of hours
by people who don’t even know you.
I’ve learned that even when you think you have no more to give,
when a friend cries out to you,
you will find the strength to help.

I’ve learned that writing,
as well as talking,
can ease emotional pains.
I’ve learned that the people you care most about in life
are taken from you too soon.
I’ve learned that it’s hard to determine where to draw the line between being nice
and not hurting people’s feelings and standing up for what you believe.
I’ve learned to love
and be loved.

less then lovers

2009-06-07T14:40:00.002+08:00

Yay new layout!! :) I still wont be updating much but do look out for my twitter updates @ the profile page!

Okay just quick updates.
Funfair is finally over. It was fine. The weather was hot though :( I didn't win anything for the lucky draw. Our class, sigh. Actions truly speaks louder than words. But I'm not really affected by it so whatever.
:p
Malacca.. The hotel was nice. Watched Monster vs Aliens. Had fun with cousins :) It was a nice and simple trip.
Holidays lessons.. I was never on time. 8D sucks to have school during holidays but just two weeks!
Totally unprepared for prelims. Sigh :(
I'm flying off to Langkawi on Friday. Another short holiday for me then serious stuffs shall begin.

ok bye

:)

uninspired

2009-05-09T14:49:00.002+08:00

believe you can and you're half way there

2009-04-24T22:04:00.002+08:00

'When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place '

- Unknown

8)

i'm just a little bit caught in the middle

2009-04-24T21:00:00.002+08:00

Hi!! Sorry for not updating , very very lazy lately!! :b I need to stop being lazy already. School has been loooooooooooooooooooong and mundane. Aep for two hours now. Sighhhhhhh. And when I reach home , I will be too drained to do anything productive.

And there will be night classes soon!! Which I think I want to attend.

Oh, today was Parent-teacher-conference !! Got back our results slips..
Overall, I did not fail anything. Did alright for class/level but did very bad against my expectations. :(

I realise I have high expectations for myself and I am very competitive. Hah 8)

Kind of disappointed cause only Cikgu Nora and Mr Tan gave me remarks ..

"Fadilah is a motivated and determined pupil. She puts a great deal of effort to improve herself academically"

then cikgu nora say about me need work harder. Got potential.

;)

BTW, I was late today. And I didnt really care. I was strolling all along. I didnt even want to walk faster. Came after morning assembly. Hehe lucky nobody scold ^^v

So my next challenge : Prelims.

Need to SOO much better. :)

Have a gr8 weekend everyone!!!

i guess

2009-04-06T20:50:00.004+08:00

“Too often we underestimate the power of a touch, a smile, a kind word, a listening ear, an honest compliment, or the smallest act of caring, all of which have the potential to turn a life around.”

“ Most of the shadows of this life are caused by our standing in our own sunshine. "
-Ralph Waldo Emerson

i never thought that

2009-04-02T16:52:00.001+08:00

gone with the wind

2009-04-01T17:55:00.004+08:00

Its finally over!!!

No more late night studying that can make me go cuckoo :) Heheh. Now its time to enjoy before receiving probably bad results and before lessons starts!

8)

Mid year is tough though :( I possibly cant cram 1 year and 3 months stuffs in one week . I was being too ambitious haha. No more late minute studying!! But I shall see cause I am a good procrastinator :b

Exam Blues

Haha damn messy!

I like my tissue box! Do you like it? :)

Earth Hour -_-

Cant live without tv :D

Anyway I plan to watch movie tomorrow with CG! Been pangseh-ing them for countless time. Hehe.

Tomorrow will be a good day :)

I think afiqah tagged me to do a quiz!
(you can skip this part )

1. Full Name => On my facebook!
2. Nicknames => Hahahaha a lot! But most people call me Fadee. With like a certain tone. :)
3. Birth place => NUH
4. Hair color => Black
5. Natural hair style => Pony tail most of the time
6. Eye Color => Dark brown I think.
7. Birthday => 10 January :D
8. Favourite Country => Singapore because all my love ones are there!
9. Favorite color => I like most colours. But Pink, Sky Blue , Yellow , Grey is nice
10. One place you'd like to visit => Can't think of any . Maybe a place with snow?

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE
1. Have you ever been in love?
I think so but I'm not sure myself.

2. Do you believe in love at first sight?
If there's sparks and instant connection through the eyes, Yes.

3. Do you currently have a crush?
Nah.

4. Have you ever been hurt emotionally?
Duh.

5. Have you ever broken someone's heart?
Yes. I am a heart breaker

6. Have you ever had your heart broken?
Yes.

7. Have you ever liked someone but never told them?
Yes.

8. Are you afraid of commitment?
Nope

9. Who was the last person you hugged?
Probably wanling I guess, does that count? Haha

10. Who was the last person you said I love you to?
Myself

TEN THIS OR THAT.
1. Love or lust
Love

2. Hard liquor or beer?
Root beer float!

3. Cats or dogs?
Cats.

4. A few best friends or any regular friends?
Both

5. Creamy or Crunchy?
This questions remind me of chocolates . I like both kinds! :)

6. Pencil or Pen?
I don't show favoritism on a stationary. lol

7. Wild night out or romantic night in?
Romantic Night! I don't want to turn wild.

8. Money or Happiness?
Both!! Greedy ok.

9. Night or day?
Night! Peaceful~

10. IM or phone?
Phone I think. Unlimited SMS ma :)

TEN HAVE YOU EVER
1. Been caught sneaking out?
Hahah I can't recall any but probably yes

2. Seen a polar bear?
On TV.

3. Done something you regret?
Sure

4. Bungee jumped?
No!! Tooo scary. Escape Theme Park already is scary okay! :(

5. Eaten food that fell on the floor?
Yup

6. Finished an entire jaw breaker?
'.' I dont have good vocab so i dont know whats that

7. Been caught naked?
Don't think so!

8. Wanted an ex bf/gf back?
Nope. Still friends

9. Cried because you lost a pet ?
Nope.
10. Wanted to disappear?
At difficult times yes :>

TEN PREFERENCES IN A PARTNER
1. Smile or eyes?
Both please! :)

2. Light or dark hair?
Dark. But brown is good.

3. Hugs or kisses?
Lets seee I think hugs. But kisses are okay too.

4. Shorter or taller?
Taller .

5. Intelligence or attraction?
Bothh! Why all the questions like this? Makes me look greedy

6. Topman or Zara?
Depends

7. Funny or serious?
Both !! -_- but not too serious please.

8. Older or Younger?
Older

9. Outgoing or quiet?
Both!! Again, being greedy..

10. Sweet or Bad ?
Sweet ^-^

TEN HAVE YOUS
1. Ever performed in front of a large crowd?
yes

2. Ever talked on the phone for longer than an hour?
yes

3. Ever tried walking on your hands?
I guess so

4. Ever been to a rock concert?
nope

5. Ever been on a cheer leading team?
Hahaha no.

6. Ever been on a dance team?
Lets see. I danced a couple of times before but in an official team, no.

7. Ever been on a sports team?
Yes. Netball!

8. Ever been in a drama play/production?
Yes

9. Ever owned a BMW, Mercedes Benz, Escalade, Hummer or Bentley?
Would love to!! Yum

10. Ever been in a rap video?
Nah

TEN LASTS
1. Last phone call you made?
Mum

2. Last person you hugged?
Ask again ?

3. Last person you hung out with?
Iman and Farah

4. Last time you worked?
I never work before!

5.Last person you talked to?
Mum

6. Last person you IM'd?
Iman

7. Last person you texted?
Iman

8.Last person(s) you went to the movies with?
I think with zuran and her nenek + bros . I extra right. Lol

9. Last Person Who called you?
Mum

10. Last website visited?
Facebook.

Ten person to do this
10.

The person who tagged you.
Afiqah

2. Your relationship with her/him.
Schoolmate

3.Your 5 impressions of her/him.
Happy, Tall , Nice , Like korean guys ( can see ) and has a cute voice. Hahah

4.The most memorable thing that he/she has done for you
Smile :)

5. The most memorable thing he/she has said to you.
I dont know , we rarely talk.

6. If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on.
Wont happen :)

7. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will.
That wont happen either.

8. What is the thing you want to tell him/her now.
*smile*

9. Your overall impression of him/her.
Nice

10. How do you think the person around you will feel about you?
Not sure eh. Maybe pangseh-queen :p

11. The character you love about yourself is.
Maybe I am not cruel?

12.The character you hate about yourself is.
Lazy

13. The most ideal person you want to be.
Healthy + Happy :)

14. For people who cares and likes you, say something to them.
Appreciate it! ^^V thanks

Done . Whew.

day two

2009-03-24T15:53:00.002+08:00

totally not motivated!! I don't know if its me or the papers, but its make me feel like giving up. :(
arghhh i will do whatever i can.

shall not put my hopes high anymore.

p.s: Its been a while since I went out and had fun. Cant w8 to watch a movie or something :)
heeheee, counting down!

androecium gynoecium oestrogen progesterone

2009-03-21T21:45:00.002+08:00

arghhh.

:(

the tough gets going

2009-03-17T13:51:00.002+08:00

Not really looking forward to school reopens. Not prepared at all!! Thank god there's no lesson tomorrow! Yay ^-^ Can sleep a bit more.

Sometimes I forget it is the holidays now. Sighhhh . But this struggle is just a pinch of what lies ahead. If I can't take this stress how I am going to cope in future?? :b

Besides I am kind of enjoying the little things that is happening right now. :) These little things will definitely be the things that i will miss in future..

step-down from netball already. :'(
i admit sometimes I dislike netball but i never regret joining that CCA. So many memories..
. And all this memories will never happen again.. The sweats, the laughters , the jokes , the tears .. etc The camps, the matches. Met many wonderful people too! :)

Well, lets cherish the present and hold the memories of the past in our hearts . <: Note to self : Don't give up. The sunshine will appear after the rain :)

p.s I know this is super random(can't help it sorry)

gonna have dark rings

2009-03-10T22:48:00.003+08:00

I should really be panicking now!! I don't know how I am going to cram all the information in my head in less than two weeks , but i have too! Must!! :(

Exams suck . Period

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

hate goodbyes

2009-03-08T12:41:00.004+08:00

hello, im sorry for not giving proper updates :( anyways i cant believe its MARCH already. Less than 8 months to the big O . So many hopes , but I'm not doing enough!! Mid Year is in two weeks . :/ and soon, we will graduate :( Not looking forward to that. I really enjoy this 3 years going to 4 years in Unity Sec ... Things will never be the same again . Like never ever. :/

Yesterday was the last meeting of CCAC :( love that bunch. Made my secondary life much more interesting :) going to miss them.

Need to treasure every moment now, cause it will never come back :)

Now I shall go back to my books.. (if i dont procrastinate)
bye!

it is written

2009-03-01T20:26:00.003+08:00

Tell me something, anything. @ my tagboard :)

light up my darkness lights

2009-02-21T22:09:00.003+08:00

“When we were little, life worked perfectly. No matter what happened, everything turned out alright in the end. Scraped knees, canceled play dates, dropped ice cream cones— we would cry for a short time, but by the end of the day, everything would be perfect. And now as we’ve grown older, we’ve lost the faith as we stumble through each day, crying over broken hearts, lost friendships, and lost dreams. It seems like life and perfection have turned their backs on us, but really its just that we’ve grown up. As children we didn’t pay attention to such details about our daily lives, but now we are more aware, and little details seem to be amplifying our pain. But just remember that when we were younger, life was hard too, but we had faith in perfection because we could look past faults. So don’t lose your faith. Learn to know that each day will pass, each heartache will be mended, and everything will be perfect in the end. Just keep your faith.”

anonymous

:)

untitled

2009-01-31T18:44:00.002+08:00

"kill the monster while it is still small"

changed

2009-01-31T17:57:00.004+08:00

The motivation workshop is over, sadly :( truly amazing!! Learnt and realize so many things. Hard to explain what we been through but its just spectacular. Seriously man! :) truly motivational.
I believe all of us have become stronger one way of another. :) I would never forget the part we all cried. All those loud sobbing and sniffing. The public speeches that were made. The hugs.. The stories.. The laughters.. I wont ever forget how we are not afraid of just showing our emotions and our trueselves. How we just let the tears flow. Thanks to all the people who made this possible.

The most powerful quotes to me after the workshop
"Pay first, Play later "

"Do it now,
Do it right,
Do it fast! "

I hope I would not just let all the qualities I learnt to wear off over the days. I must let it be within be always :)
goodluck sec 4s!!

i want to be beautiful

2009-01-27T20:51:00.003+08:00

happy chinese new year to all my chinese friends :D Chinese are richer than malay . yes/no ? In general i mean.. cause the angpaos they get are freaking a lot i think. Right? :) I am jealous. haha

btw, i did not study this 4 days! :( but i am not mad at myself. No moood you see. If no mood = nothing go inside head = no point!

besides.. i am going to get motivated this week! :)
pretty hyped about this workshop
hehehehe

summary of these few days
46 carwash! - fun washing teachers cars! Okay I only like cleaning the rims. Manage to raise $200 + i think. Yay 46! 8D
netball tournament- first match over! team won :) i did not play but i screamed instead. and, i saw false information which made myself & others panic -_- sorry
Tests- Tests.. same routine again. My biology is going down the drain,seriously :( but my a maths better i think :)
Hospital- My father and small cousin got admitted to the hospital cause of fever.. but both of them are discharged and are okay! thank god :)
Leisure- Relaxed at home .. watched CJ7 and Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist , read books , went window shopping , visit auntie house today , went to the beach , played kite ,laid down listening to the waves and enjoying the breeze..etc :)

:)
back to the routine ..

I must buck up

2009-01-19T20:31:00.003+08:00

I'm not doing so well in my tests :( that sucks. On the other hand, tournament starts tomorrow :)
Must relax! I cant work well under pressure!
When all this netball stuffs its over, I got a list to do! Hehe.

ok bye.
goodluck to me and you! :)

push to your limits

2009-01-14T18:08:00.003+08:00

after the results, was quite in a dilemma. To drop hmt or not? :/ but most probably i think i will continue. Don't want to give up and take the easy way..

Must not be contented and work harder!! :)
work harder, study smart!

goodluck everybody :)

zonals next week, going be super tired i bet. :(

dont give up fadilah!
persevere! :D

sooner or later

2009-01-12T19:07:00.002+08:00

Im blogging because im over the moon!! :)
because ..

1) My friends gave me this bottle full of accesories (thanks x 1000 babes :D )
2) Most importantly, i got..
A1 for Malay!!!

Wohoooooo. I thought I was going to get B3 cause I didn't have a good feeling about it but I prove myself wrong :) damn satisfied.

and while waiting for the results, i was freaking nervous!! Wanted to cry , my hairs are standing and my hand are cold!
If this is how I feel when taking the result of 1 subject what about if i take all 7 ? :O

my malay class is so cengeng (crybaby), hahahahah :b Congrats to everyone who did well!! and i must thank some teachers yeah..

okay my birthday was fine. Nothing significant happened. I am 15 years 367 days old now! :D But anyway thanks to ALL who wished me and gave me presents. You know who you are!! :)
MANY MANY THANKS!!

I appreciate it :)

now, I FEEL SO DAMN MOTIVATED TO STUDY!
wohooo!

unfold

2009-01-04T12:53:00.002+08:00

"Each day is a new canvas to paint upon. Make sure your picture is full of life and happiness, and at the end of the day you don't look at it and wish you had painted something different."

don't expect much updates :)

nightmare

2009-01-03T21:28:00.003+08:00

Ms Kom no longer our netball teacher :( quite sad although i shouldn't be. I am weird like that :) I dreamed about her last night. Wait it was a nightmare! She punished me and was bloody violent! Hahaha find it quite amusing. I think I smiled in my dream.

Anyways, Confession of a Shopaholic is going to be a movie! Yes that book that I like to read is going to be a movie Yay. :) And I still want to watch Ponyo on the cliff by the sea! :b

I have the most random updates ever! p/s Somebody's single!!!! and duh its not me. Im always single.

:)

i know you know

2009-01-02T22:34:00.003+08:00

I am an official sec 4 student!! Still adjusting though. I am so scared about what going to be ahead :( Its okay I shall overcome this! While I was showering, I thought of things that made me feel accomplished. Then I thought finishing 10 rounds made me feel accomplished :) so then I thought about life. ..and running can be like life. So I thought of this quote . "You wont reach the finishing line unless you push yourself. " So philosophical! Haha! But its kinda true if you think about it :) well at least to me.

OK back to first day of school!! I think I'm loving my teachers more! :) which is gooooooooood, i think. Some of them cracks me up :b Didnt do much , they are too busy stressing on o levels and exams and motivation and blablabla. I am going to stay back a lot in time to come thats for sure!!

oh, and O LEVEL RESULT IS COMING OUT SOON. NEXT WEEK WED/THURS/FRIDAY!!!!
i.am.freaking.scared! :(

And NETBALL ZONALS IS COMING ANYTIME SOON!

AEP ALSO.

ohman its okay! I have my irritating frenzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.
hahahaha
okay i am irritating today too 8)
i am turning 16 soon
shit.

are you ready?

2009-01-01T00:04:00.003+08:00

Happy New Year! :b
Its 2009 already! and the truth is, I.am.freaking.out

And the phone lines are jammed :( and i am not looking forward to school because i have no new shoes or bag :(

But I shall welcome 2009 with a smile at least :D

Happy New Year! :b TO EVERYONE AGAIN
LOTS OF HUGS AND KISSES!

take a deep breath

2008-12-31T13:13:00.003+08:00

2008 have been fulls of ups and down where sometimes,

I had been feeling down, disappointing myself and others.

Where I had been taking people for granted and doing something that I never meant to.

Where I have been failing maths again and again :(
Where I feel I should treat others better...

Nevertheless, 2008 was also a happy year where

I had so much fun with my love ones and just wish time would stop.

Where I experience some things that I would want to remember forever..

2008 had taught me so many things .. gave me so much experience and emotions. For the happy times, I want to cherish it.. But for the sad times, i want to learnt from it and never repeat the same mistake again..

Hopefully 2009 will be much better and more meaningful! (:

love, fadilah :b

in love with ..

2008-12-29T20:47:00.003+08:00

its amazing how someone can make me smile without doing anything!! ^-^v
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh (:
mai dont steal okay! :b or anybody!

hahahaha. Must force myself to finish homework tomorrow!! GRRRRRRR. Time runs so fast before you can even catch it :(

sorry i know i am boring you with short posts.
but too bad!! :b

note to self

2008-12-27T21:26:00.003+08:00

Cause every wasted day becomes a wasting chance.You're gonna wake up feeling sorry 'cause life won't wait.

i cant feel anything

2008-12-26T23:33:00.002+08:00

I would like to remind myself that schools start in exactly 7 days! :( is that fast or what! Then when school start, I will find myself in a TOTAL boring cycle! I can imagine myself waking up like a zombie, taking bus and mrt and going through mundane lessons. How depressing. But its okay I am a positive person! School is actually not bad. Just wish it will start later like at 9. And like have 3 days school 4 days off . How cool! Minus all the stupid discipline rules and stressful tests (:

I can only tell myself two words, dream on.

Okay back to topic! Met up with baby aka budak malaysia netball aka farah hannah sururi :p at lot 1. Ate mac and this macdonald staff ask us to take part in a survey. The first question was "Do you love Mcdonalds? " HAHA super weird man. Then went library to do homework. Soon, melted chocolate came. :p

Then some magical thing happen! Called kakak fizah and we 4 watched twilight. Dont expect me to say " Edward Cullen is so hot!! I want watch the movie again!! " hahah cause i wont. The movie was average. Seen better movies man (: no offence to anybody . I guess its enough for me to watch once!

I can officially say that I am NOT a twilight fan (:

Jiggle bells jiggle bell

2008-12-24T14:29:00.002+08:00

Merry Christmas!School starting so soon , bummer :(

"I thought I was lost in the city, it was just your eyes."

you cant play our broken strings

2008-12-21T21:39:00.002+08:00

2009 is coming so soon. Last year in Unity , I have to cherish it. I remember back then I used to dislike Unity but slowly it became part of me. So much had happened. So much memories. I don't regret coming to Unity after all (: I am glad I am part of this. Seriously , the school is small but I don't really mind anymore. Every place, every spot and every corner has a meaning. All those experiences. If I didn't go Unity, I wouldn't meet so many great friends and teachers.
I must make the best out of myself. I want to leave Unity with the happiest smile :D olevel olevel!

okay i feel so random. I realise I have so many unaccomplished wishes and dreams and goals. I don't want to regret anymore. The worst feeling.

p.s happy 25th birthday bro ♥

boom bang booooom!

2008-12-18T13:41:00.002+08:00

I'm BACK from Bali. (:
It was interesting and nice. Volcano. Mountains. Lake. Swimming. Temples. Glass boats. Turtles. Bats. Monkey Forest. Shopping blablablabla
It was an experience uh. Hahaha

I know this is a disappointing update. But i'm so lazy :(
Maybe updating more. Maybe posting pictures
MAYBE
:B

i need to get my gear working and start preparing for 2009 now
so not updating that much now.

(:

nobody said it was easy

2008-12-12T19:12:00.002+08:00

in case i cant blog tomorrow..
i want to tell you that im going holiday on sunday!
^-^

soo.. tag me please
if not , tak fren ahhh

i wear goggles to bed

2008-12-11T21:00:00.001+08:00

more @ my facebook(:

when we first met

2008-12-11T16:14:00.004+08:00

its raining now .
i want cakes,brownies,cupcakes,chocolates now!
NOW NOW NOW !
:(
the temptations is too strongggggggg
to the point that im angry???

whats wrong with me
i want it nowwwwwwwwwwwww

best feeling

2008-12-10T14:19:00.002+08:00

Chalet was gureeeeeeeeeeeeat. damn memorable for me 8D
I don't know where to start!!
Okay firstly I love the chalet compound! Its like the biggest chalet i went to before (:
I highly recommend people to book a chalet at aloha loyang! Okay so the chalet i stayed in was a two story terrace with 4 rooms. So I shared a room with 4 of my cousins (: hahah . I miss arguing about the bed and cooking mama . Cooking mama is addictiveee! Now all the foods remind me of cooking mama. 8) and i miss arguing about the toilet. Haha

my chalet was the left one :D

So we most of the time we would eat and play eat and play. that is da lyfe~ so fun~ so i went swimming twice! I love swimmingggg. Love the slide. :D went swimming on hari raya haji hahahah.
And on hari raya haji i dont even hve to wear baju kurung, i just wore home clothes (: how cool.
okay then went playroom a couple of times. The first time i went there with aisyah i went crazy . :p such a pity i didn't take photos of the playroom. Heeheee. then went to the arcade a couple of times too. To play para para! hahahaha so funny but fun ah. I suck though. LOL. Most of the time we had it to ourselves.

then had barbecue for 2 nights. actually 3 but i had to go home cause got tuition. Bummer man :( i like barbecue food 8D luv the scallops!

then went escape. So hot!! But it was quite fun. Viking rocks (: and i made friends on the flipper thingy . They are from katong convent. 8D hahaha

so many more things to say but describing it wont be as fun as the real thing!! I will remember this 3 days for life! (: Im lazy to describe already hahaha

Thanks to everybody who made this fun and possible . Especially all my cute cousins, love ya all (:

(will upload some camwhore pics if my cousin give me.)

happy holidays! Omg 2 weeks left :( :( :( :(

lights camera action

2008-12-06T21:31:00.001+08:00

posting twice today :p Just finished watching aliens and predators and the ending is such a spoiler! :( to me lah.

okay the other time i went to facebook and i spot this :

hahahaha. It is actually an ad cause i saw it before in english. Its suppose to mean "you have 1 new crush." and then you will be interested and click it -_-
but apparently , they translate it wrongly
crush=menhancurkan??
big mistake lol

click here to know what your mole means

mines either mole 28 or 51
which means

A mole here suggests you should take care of your money, or you could find yourself losing some of your hard-earned cash.

or

This person has a tendency to be slovenly and messy.

interesting eh?
dont know to believe or not.
but just have to careful about my money (: and be neater

believe me

2008-12-06T14:16:00.003+08:00

Short update!!
I will be at aloha loyang tmr until tues/wednesday.
yes, i'm celebrating hari raya haji there! ^-^

enjoy your holidays people!!

okay i have a hard time sleeping last night , then i suddenly remember of some sort like a game i played in primary school. Couldn't remember the exact rules but it is something like you have to close your eyes. Then someone will ask for your name. After that they will ask whats your fav food? Then you must say blood. Then they will ask whats your fav drink then you must say blood. Then after that you must put your hand over your eyes, still keeping your eyes closed. Then if you lucky can see ghost!!

anyone played this game before??? I remember nadia begum played with me this before. And I realise it is so stupid! hahahaha

ok byebyebye
(:

bummer

2008-12-05T21:04:00.006+08:00

Things are going not as planned :( Maybe today isn't just my day.Some adults are terrifying , seriously. They make you feel all bad. Now I feel terrible.

Sometimes I wish i was invisible
Sometimes I wish my eyes were fierce so when I look at them , they will just shut up.

I want to prove to the world something.
Just wait.
(:

I must be happy because:
1) there will be better days
2)people have just bad days sometimes
3)better to smile rather than frown
4)i look ugly if I'm sad
5)other people have bigger problems
6)i need to deal with it step by step
7) its not that bad
8) because i am a happiee galxz ^^v
ahahah

so i say a little prayer

2008-12-04T18:19:00.002+08:00

today is a better day.. (:

UK Immigration Officer: Purpose of visit?
Visitor: I'm here to study law, sir.
Officer: You know, you must have a lot of lawyers in Singapore .
Visitor: Why do you say that?
Officer: Well, i've been here for a good twenty years, and I'd say 80% of Singaporean I see here say they're here to read law.
Visitor: Oh, really? That's really something i never knew. Hard to believe in fact.
Officer: Just you watch, then. You just stand here until the next Singaporean comes along, and I'll bet he's here to read law.
(Visitor waits for 5 mins, Chong from Singapore comes to immigration counter)
Officer: Mr. Chong, purpose of visit?
Chong: Study lor...

taken from sg club.
do you get it ?? :P

you have been superpoked

2008-12-03T10:50:00.003+08:00

I am missing out a lot of things!

I have missed 3 training in a row. First is the leaders camp , then i fell sick on two days.
and now..
I am going to miss two more trainings cause i am going someplace not in Singapore and the
flight has been booked
that means i will / have missed 5 trainings in a row
:O
and people will think i am ponning!
sorry teammates. :(

then i missed out on ruzanna birthday celebration , 36 class barbecue AND 25 class chalet
:(

what.is.happening

theres something about you

2008-12-02T21:40:00.003+08:00

I am feeling lifeless.
Period.

Don't feel like doing anything.
and..
I realise I am quite a dreamer.

I want my wackiness back
where did it go?

the day that never comes again

2008-11-30T16:21:00.004+08:00

1)Finally updating. Its going to be December already. Then after around a month, I am going to be an official Secondary Four student. I'm not that scared already, i'm up for it. If my seniors can survive , so can I. (:

2)I am missing a lot of people, been so long since I met my friends. :( Been missing trainings too. Speaking of training, fzh says that we are getting new coach. Ahhh, not excited . At all. I am nervous actually. Lets hope shes not the type that will make us run alot. I hate running repeatedly. I dont get how people can enjoy running laps. geez

3)I going to start being serious on 1 dec. That means studying and completing homework. I still can relax though (:

4) I want swim.

5) What if all the people in the world look the same?

6) The world is so near the end. With all the bombs and bangs going on at Bangkok and Dhubai. Remind me of akhsheh. omg, i forgot how to spell his name already. Hope he is ok at dhubai. He lives there right?
(edit)
i realise the bombing place is at mumbai instead of dhubai! hahaha silly me.

7) My birthday is around 40 more days. Sixteen sounds so old. Some people just turned fifteen and I am going to turn sixteen. :O

8) Why some people don't believe I am born in January?

9) I am still skinny 8)

"That’s not it. Listen mototo you better treat this lady like a queen. Because you... you my friend, you’ve found yourself the perfect woman. If I was ever so lucky to find the perfect woman, I would give her flowers every day. And not just any flowers ok? Her favorites are orchids. White. And I’d bring her breakfast every day. 6 loaves of wheat toast with butter on the side. No crusts. The way she likes it. I’d be her shoulder to cry on and her best friend. And I’d spend every day trying to think of how to make her laugh. She has the most… most amazing laugh. That’s what I would do, if I were you. But I’m not, so you do it. "

- Melman, madagascar 2

memories

2008-11-16T12:50:00.004+08:00

(edit)

Camp is long over. It was fantastic! Thanks all. Mac Chicken was great. (: Thanks again.

CCAC+SC

WE got dslr-ed

Yew Tee CC.

Best

can i have this dance

2008-11-11T19:03:00.002+08:00

bright shorts. If im not wrong it has pineapples on it (: so unglam.
I think that was 5 years ago or something.

hahaha

okay the point of blogging is to tell you that
i hate myself for,
taking things for granted :(

and wishing that someone would come back. :(
why didnt i treasure the times ..
okay this is no bgr stuffs

hmm..
so you people dont take things for granted ok? (:

well my week is kind of pack. School.is.quite.sickening
DOINKS.
hahaha

so had dance practice for leaders camp just now!
wooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooh! :D
the can i have this dance is sweet
mwahahahahaha

ok lah bye.
xoxo
(:

if i were a boy

2008-11-09T14:32:00.002+08:00

I shall not lie. I am lazy to blog already. Its a routine and i make routines sound boring. So, school has still not ended yet! Big booohooo! :( Next week is suppose to be the last week of school but I think im suppose to have maths remedial next next week . :( camp is coming too! Quite excited for it. Mwahahaha

Lets not talk about holidays cause i dont know when i will be having the REAL holiday with all the lessons and ccas. :(

School has been fine, I keep coming late though. Been dragging myself to school. Sigh. Teachers are too dedicated. hahaha. Cikgu Nora is coming back yay! I hate to say this but I will miss zombie's teaching too especially her actions. LOL .

Well CCA is fine too, still NO passion. Dont know fly where. Iman has joined me and fizah's BTSN club. :P

OH, OLEVEL MALAY IS OVER :D Results going to be out in January . If I get A1 it will be the best birthday present (:

YAY I HAVE UPDATED.

xoxo

i shall

2008-10-29T21:14:00.002+08:00

i shall not be scared for o level i shall not be scared for o level i shall not be scared for o level i shall not be scared for o level i shall not be scared for o level i shall not be scared for o level i shall not be scared for o level i shall not be scared for o level i shall not be scared for o level i shall not be scared for o level i shall not be scared for o level i shall not be scared for o level i shall not be scared for o level i shall not be scared for o level i shall not be scared for o level i shall not be scared for o level i shall not be scared for o level i shall not be scared for o level i shall not be scared for o level i shall not be scared for o level i shall not be scared for o level i shall not be scared for o level i shall not be scared for o level i shall not be scared for o level i shall not be scared for o level i shall not be scared for o level i shall not be scared for o level i shall not be scared for o level i shall not be scared for o level i shall not be scared for o level

BUT IM SCARED!! :(
NEXT WEDNESDAY IS MALAY OLEVEL
I MUST GET AN A1
SOMEONE TELL ME HOW TO WRITE FABULOUSLY FOR KARANGAN!
:(
i.am.panicking.

HIATUS HIATUS Going to study.
haha but actually its just an excuse
i lazy to blog
WISH ME LUCK FOR OLEVELS :D
come on 3HML 08 lets prove to zombie we can do it and make cikgu nora proud
:D

fourteen dollars

2008-10-24T22:55:00.003+08:00

Nurfadilah 4/6 speaking. Yikes. Going to secondary Four already :( very very very scary feeling. I should get used to this.

Somehow, I dont really mind going to school for another 3 weeks. I dont mind studying again after EYE just ended. I dont know why or how, im having the mood to actually study. This is COOOL! :D Maybe this shall be a revolution!!! OKAY I excited already.

(sidetrack)
farah gave me a link to watch domukun. And domukun is so bloody stupid lahhh! But okay ahh i laughed at episode 3 :P now i shall laugh at my netball jersey hahaha

anyways outing with farah is great. :D still not satisfied. Im a good shopper at food but not clothes.etc Thanks for the day GM partner :D
go to her blog for more details I suck at explaining

btw, I am the worst bargainer ever. Right farah? HAHA

xoxo

you have ten seconds left

2008-10-20T21:19:00.002+08:00

i shall believe that 36 got life!! :D

So went cine leisure with class to watch eagle eye. honestly I thought it was going to be booooring. (i am not a fan of action movies fyi) but it was rather exciting!!! Hahahah damn suspense man. 8)

I remember how I used to dislike 36... how i used to envy 37...but now its all going to change (:
i seriously hope it will..

so like i think 25 people turned up. Not bad at all plus it was kinda last minute.. hmm

walk around after that and went to cut my hair. Not much difference just lighter. Hahah. The hairdresser kinda friendly can speak malay.

ohh not forgetting, i did some pretty embarassing things today!!

me: eh i feel like doing something stupid..
5 seconds later..
Guess what!
I fell on the stairs! :O
got alot of people lehhh
lol
i guess i got my wish eh?
haha

then it was me scratching some strangers hand!!
tsk tsk tsk

school tomorrow :(
plus netball. Lol i shall try not to slack again!

ultimately

2008-10-18T16:58:00.002+08:00

CCAC meeting today. Discuss about camp. :D im planning on the secret activity. mwahahahahahaha. and no its not something fun :P

I cant believe i forgot how my p5 buddy looks like
and I forgot how my P2 buddy looks like

:(
looser

lets be in a bubble

2008-10-15T17:17:00.003+08:00

:(
Results are pretty bad :( very disappointing. Although there's no turning back, still cant help to feel depressed.
I don't know what to say. Disappointed myself especially and others.
:(
i know i said i will work hard, i did, but its not hard enough..
i guess ?
:(
i shall not give up!!!!!!!!!
failure is a step to sucess!(:

i think i need to rewind, reflect and then work hard
(:

dont give up on me ..

love love love love

2008-10-13T20:54:00.003+08:00

weee.
met iman and farah just now and went bpp and lot
(: me and farah couldnt find anythingggggg :( hahaha
nvm we will take it slow and buy something that will catch our eyes eh?
on the other hand, iman was smiling gleefully cause she got what she wants
lol
as always.
:P

ahhhh finally im not :( or angry anymore!! Things are turning out back to normal!
YAY! hehehehe sorry for being such a bitch anyways. I finally know the real truth

To farah and fizah :
IM not anggry at you guys anymore! I think im being too paranoid. Maybe its hard to see you hanging out with other friends then im not used to ? Im so so so sorry , You guys meant alot to me thats why ! (: dont worry, i will not be dissapointed when you hang out with your new friends anymore. It must be hard on you now. I shall compromise from now onwards!! :D Lastly I love you and sorry yeahh!! :D

Finally, im very very very sorry and hope we can be like the same wacky calendar girls eh (:

xoxo,
fadilah
(:

quality is better than quality

2008-10-13T12:33:00.002+08:00

mwahahaha! I think im fine already (: i think..
shouldnt let other people bring me down!

So I didnt go to school today :D Got some lame games and movie screening anyways .
15 absentees!! Yay :D Cause maybe dont need give letter.
8) maybe going out laterrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

Eh tommorow got netball? I damn lazy to train :( baaaaaaaaaaah
okay byebye
update laterz

are you guys serious

2008-10-12T11:13:00.005+08:00

What kind of friend(s) is this? Like seriously??? Such wonderful pretenders eh. If your motive is to make me/us feel terrible. Congratulations you did it. Wtf I/we did wrong man?!? Bloody hell. And all along I have been treasuring this friendship. If you feel guilty it should be you ,you ,you ,you or you!
D:

and i maybe we will return back to normal.
i hope.
:/
i shall be strong

"Let your heart be your guide
And you will know that you’re good if you trust in the good"

the mind keeps thinking you've had enough but the heart keeps telling you don't give up

2008-10-10T22:35:00.004+08:00

While some other people are busy jalaning raye, i am at home all along!! Dont get me wrong, I find joy in staying at home. No kidding (: Of course not too long . So I guess all ofyou guys had fun today? Yes/No? I rode my bike today haha

Some interesting facts to share, Do you guys know there is like 70 million(if im not wrong) people around the world who are blind?
I knew that from the radio. Amazing huh?
Ohya I was bored so I googled random things. 8)

what i found out no 1 :
Sleeping in/sleeping more than you should is unhealthy and bad! It causes headaches and tension around your head. Plus, you will be feeling more fatigue cause you are dehydrated.

I should stop sleeping more than I should. 8D

what i found out no 2:
Hairstyles like a tight ponytails causes tension headaches!! Wow I didnt know that! When I know I let go my hair lol. Okay I should not sleep with a ponytail on :D

what i found out no 3:
Sleeping facedown won't make your balloons deflate, but it will change their shape over time. The best snooze style for your breasts is on your side with a pillow under them for support.

hahaha wth

last fact i found out!
Your thumb is the same length of your nose! Its pretty accurate. Okay go ahead and try . I know some of you are right now :p

I watched Do re mi fa so la ti do today also
since I feel like watching romance movies. And it is touching. Fine I cried
The actors are pretty good looking too (:

weekends are here!! Enjoy before you got the dreaded papers back ya!!
:)
I put in some emoticons in my tagboard too

-check it out! :D

xoxo
I miss falling in love.. Wait was I ever in love??? :/

Do you catch a breath when I look at you

2008-10-10T00:38:00.003+08:00

Exams are officially over today :D No more staying up late and cramming your brain to memorize formulas/equations/facts that don't make sense. Today was amaths and i screwed it like really really. I know nuts about most of the questions. I kind of gave up on the paper but i haven't gave up on amaths yet (:

during/after the exams i learned a lot of things that i must do, like seriously. I must practice maths until crazy. The reason why i screwed maths because I don't practice. note to self: maths is not equal to memorising formulas.

Secondly, I should not take risks by only studying one topic for History. I only studied Hitler and it did not bloody come out. :( i was very very very disappointed. No more A1. No Korea. :'(

Exams are pretty much dissapointing but every cloud has a silver lining :D results will be out and yeah i know i will disappoint people.
Sorry anyways.

alright enough of sad parts!!
Exams over = me happy :D

ahh im so deprived of sleep
keep staying up late :(
i think i sleep first
maybe continue tommorow or something?
theres a lot of time (:

Enjoy your weekends!!!

xoxo

short update

2008-10-03T23:05:00.003+08:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA! :D

well hari raya this year lost its touch . It feels different :/ only went 5 houses and no one came to my house so farrrrr o.o

BLAME THE EXAMS.

but im happy with the green packets ! (: i feel rich.
thanks all who gave me, i will spend it wisely

should i upload the hari raya pictures?

SCHOOL is.
pathetic!!

oh ya i was late on thurs i think by ONE MINUTE. looser (:
maths paper was :(. It looks easy but i dont know how to solve some
worrieeeeeeeed :/

chem history amaths emaths left
:'(

baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah

i love you farah. i wouldnt bother if i didnt care (:

im trying to run away

2008-09-27T22:40:00.004+08:00

YAY 3 papers goneeee which is ENGLISH, SOCIAL STUDIES AND BIOLOGY!! Not really satisfied with my performance but I did my best so its alright :D

ENGLISH : Comprehension passage is STILL boring but better than mountains definately. Summary was hard to summarize. But the most stupid thing I did was to write the wrong question number for my compo !! -_- hope the teachers are not strict if not I can fail english mann :( that will be terrible ! and its just because you write question num wrongly o.o

ok next

SOCIAL STUDIES: Okay so i struggled the previous night trying to put SS facts inside my head but I cant! The brain was all filled out with biology stuffs :( but i htink its my fault i only took like less than a quarter of a day to study ss compared to bio which i spend a couple of days. But luckily i can do the paper (: .not confident about getting an A1 though but will pray hard :D KOREA KOREA KOREA.

BIOLOGY : The paper was such a dissapointment! A lot of the things i studies didnt came out like the lub dub sound, hypothalamus , ADH , the heart structure and so onnn. And the paper was HARD :( boooooooo. mdm aisha's "tips" was no good. hahaha

so thats it still got 5 more paper to go.
I need to pass e maths and a maths! I know this sounds stupid but i cant let mr tan down. He said to me " just persevere .. " with hopeful eyes when he gave me the certificate.
lol i shall do it for everyone (:

i AM still dreaming of school.
That night i dream of mdm aisha then mr arul.. *shakes head*
then i dream of the school compound
Got this weird dream uh, i think there were many people at the parade square.
All of of us (including me) was trying to kill a very small fly .
then blabla
I MANAGED to killed it.
guess what
mr arul and the rest of the school mates CLAPPED and looked so impress
hahahahah
very very weird :D

well byebye
goodluck all
xoxo

i hope you can take me seriously

2008-09-25T14:10:00.002+08:00

i know im not suppose to blog but oh well.

been not myself lately. i feel weirddddddddddd
ah im so sorry :(

if i was a president i would ban exams.

i cant wait for exams to be overrrrrrr
oh oh yesterday i didnt even use the tv or computer for the whole day :O
not bragging but its amazing
to me lah

well enjoy your exams! :/

xoxo

no more blogging for me till after eoy

2008-09-17T09:04:00.003+08:00

away, dont miss me
(:

xoxo

im an idiot

2008-09-17T08:51:00.002+08:00

today i went to school but i never reached.

:(

stupid bus. maybe i shall not blame the bus but it is its fault. I waited for 25 minutes. Then after I reached cck int i decided to head back since its 735 already. I don't want to be late. I don't like being punished by the discipline teachers plus I don't want this to be counted as first offence for ccac. I can get expelled from ccac or maybe im just being too paranoid?

I am :( and (: that i did not go to school.
:( cause miss lessons and important points.
(: cause can study at the comfort of my room

I shall make full use of today and study until my brain hurts.
So i can say i have a headache thats why i didnt come to school =D

im being such a nerd 8)
xoxo

2008-09-16T18:54:00.002+08:00

i feel so lifeless.

i hate to dream about studying! Why I keep having dreams about maths? :/

im going to be a nerd but i dont care

2008-09-12T21:41:00.001+08:00

not blogging so frequent now (:
its time to hit the books.
8D

xoxo

i fell in love without you

2008-09-11T20:04:00.002+08:00

i need a break . luckily there's no homework/quiz tommorow so i can relax for the rest of the night! yay! :D

been so sleepy nowadays , sigh
sick of school.

:(
xoxo

I waved goodbye to that heart of mine

2008-09-07T15:31:00.004+08:00

Sorry I think i got too carried away at my previous post until I forget to update about my life .

Okay the main thing is holidays are ending!!! One whole week gone!! *poof* I think the amount of productive work I done is like only 5 percent. :P But its okay there's still time!!

Homeworks are almost done and its time for a new term. Term 4! :( I think its going to be bloody busy. And for someone who doesn't have good time management, I am going to suffer :(

Chemistry practical is on Tuesday. Its O level!!!! :O im nervous. Please please please dont screw up. Which reminds me i need to study the calculations. ):

More and more people are watching gossip girl its not special anymore!!!! :(
You people should hail Iman or something
hahahah
but really its getting common and i dont like it
especially if some people are watching :/
but who am i to say i cant stop them
:)
yeah i must learn to share!!

p.s
i kinda like them together i don't know why!!

i type so many "!!" today hahahaha

a few days back .
im holding a french fry btw .

im getting uglier. Pimple coming out, messy hair and oily skin.
i need to take care of myself better.

oh goodbye for now
but i shall say
"HELLO TO TERM 4" -_-
mugging period, definately :(

xoxo

i am not a pedophile

2008-09-06T16:26:00.004+08:00

I want watch this movie!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BUT i cant find it online :'( :'( and i dont think it will air in singapore :(
hope some nice fella will upload it in eng subs :D

the reason why i want watch this is because the baby damn cute! :D

picture does explain a thousand words so there you go:
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AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH (: *drools*
hahahahaha daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaang its so cute !!

you guys can book all the hot guys you want i dont care
BUT THIS BABY IS MINE!!
mwahahahahahaha
MINE!!!

xoxo

what if i am not able to love again?

2008-09-03T12:52:00.002+08:00

i have no motivation to study!! how? :(
friends are studying very hard and its scary.

i.dont.want.to.lag.behind

but how to make this little mind think and work?

examinations is all about efforts now.

bwahahahaha

2008-09-01T17:40:00.002+08:00

im excited im excited for hari raya :) it means $$$$$ come to mama! I must not expect a lot , i dont want to dissapoint myself especially with the economy . :( dang!!!

but yeah i shall dream. Dream that I can get lots of kaching!!!! 8D ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh. man im nuts. Its only first day of fasting somemore!!!! Haha! It doesnt hurt to imagine whattt(:

i shall/want get scholarship! at least the $300 one but the $500 is all goood. And what im doing now? Slacking my ass off instead of muggin and be good friends with books and formulas.

i have such a high expectations of myself
must.not.dissapoint.yours.truly

:D i think i dream more then tryin to make it possible
bad habit.

actions is louder than words!!!!

GO FADILAH GO!!

awww gossip girl season 2 ep 1 havent come out yet :( most prob coming out tommorow since US premiering it tonight at 8pm :(

its okay good things are worth the wait .

xoxo
maybe i going to study after this
MAYBE.
haha

i am seriously losing my touch

2008-08-31T14:50:00.003+08:00

sorry for not updating!!! i think i was too tired or too lazy :D
just going to summarize things cause i don't have a good memory .

so on wednesday,i skipped school JUST because i was going to be late. hahaha but i rather not go to school then facing all those punishment shits. Besides, I spent time shopping with mum. Hahahaha I should really to that again someday hmmm (= (but but i was thinking of my friends who are suffering man

next, teachers day celebration . Not really memorable :( miss the limoes . Went back to cckps with iman to eat the cheap food :D

BBQ at tembusu park :D very memorable. Thanks all. Nice food , good fun :D :D and sorry if i didnt help much . Cikgu nora and Cikgu fadilah came . I wanted to talk to them but feel shy :p thanks to the organisers also ^-^ i think i went to iman house 3 times that day hahah

netball camp the next day. Was pissed cant go sentosa. Our plans ruined. :( but hope they had fun with the water bombs thing. I had fun shouting at them hahaha. I still want an overnight camp though

Puase tommorowwwwwwwwwwwwwwww! :S

Season two tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D :D :D

grill,furious and curious

2008-08-25T18:45:00.003+08:00

YO!
Monday monday monday! This week is going to be relaxing, no tests no what! Just some lame homework which can copy of course :P . Hehehe. Need to seriously kick this habit though. I TRY.
Maths was torture as usual and i 95% dont understand what he blabbering about. Chemistry was to irritate mdm mok (: she is VERY patient though after all that clicking of pens and nonsense behaviour. SS got back test and gotten a1 :D Need to maintain this to go to korea :( o level aim : below 10 . Is this unrealistic? Like iman say, must aim high!!

Today there is no agenda hari ini!!! haha

Well the exciting part today was MUTTONS @ MIDNIGHT came as well as Soo! hahaha happy they like came to this budget school ! School wasnt hyper :( but i got to take picture with them plus get autograph. AND they laugh at our (ifff) rose mutton jokes :D :D

after that was spying at some neughbourhood blocks and see the rehearsal and lot 1.

BBQ BBQ BBQ :D

dang i type too many smileys today
oh well
ohya tmr support basketball = miss training + agenda hari ini lessons = sweetness
xoxo

headphones and heartbreakers

2008-08-23T22:12:00.002+08:00

im beat.
just came back from shopping at causeway :D bought hari raye bag and quilt cover set for my room bed. hehehe farah will be happy man cause my bed will look nicer. kwang kwang kwang

so i hope most of you people who i know got my message that i change my num (: . If you dont, tell me okay!! I didnt buy a new phone though, nothing much attracts me . Going to wait for end of year for nicer phones. 8mega pixel Samsung and SE phones coming up. 8)

oh yah speaking of phones, i explored my bro new iphone! very coooool but the camera sucks! mwahahaha. but yeah still a very nice phone! Apple should be rich by now.

update about the tortoise. This morning i wake up and observe. I threw away some water away cause i think it is tired of swimming la. Then when i checked on it again, it was gone!! Then I spot it walking to the lift. HAHA naughty tortoise. So I put it back to the container

a few hours later it escape again! It should wear the "Little Miss Naughty" shirt man!
Now I dont know where the tortoise is . Hope it it safe .

ok uh im tired

xoxo

ninja turtle

2008-08-22T21:17:00.004+08:00

y

AMAZING NEWS!(wordy post ahead)

Someone left a baby tortoise outside my house in a corner!!! I don't know if it ran away or what. Maybe it ran away cause the parents scold him/her then he(just assume its a male) stress cant take it ran away from home to outside my house! =O but then tortoise can survive without water meh?? poor thing.

maybe someone purposely left it there. Which is mean!! Should have animal police so can catch the villain. Okay so back to the tortoise. I shall call it cloudy for now since tortoise is so hard to type. So cloudy was found in a corner outside my house. He was so small. About the size of my middle finger. I think its about a few weeks old.

So my mum came to the rescue! She take out a container and filled it with water . And put cloudy inside. I was scared it will drown! But it didn't. It swam gracefully but not as strong as Michael Phelps :D

but he shall be awarded a gold medal for his strength. I wonder if its crying cause the owner abandon him? =( how can people be so mean?

now cloudy refuse to eat. Maybe he is still sad he lost his parents or what. :( or the leaf not nice? but i hope he survives under my care and he wont turn into a ghost to possess people!
that will be so ungrateful

so now cloudy is outside my house alone.
:( he quite shy sometimes hide under the shell
hehe

but i dont know what to do about cloudy. Keep him or put him in a pond? =/

btw
if you ppl sms/call me from today onwards, it wont reach me cause my phone line is terminated. My line is under by brother and he want switch to singtel for iphone(we using starhub btw)so my line have to cut also. sorry if i didnt reply or what . So i think i going to make new line tommorow (: cant live without communicating with people.

excited for bbq, cikgu nora coming (:

xoxo

hehehehehe

2008-08-20T16:51:00.003+08:00

i pass my e maths =D hehe . In case you dont know, i rarely pass my maths okay. woooo.
im worried for olevels man :( im sooo looking forward to holidays. Sick of school to the max. Maybe not until the max uh but very very sick. Yeah yeah you get the picture.
no looking forward to next year either. Long hours of school. But korea is worse so yeah must appreciate? haha
teachers day coming up sooooon! I think i want go back to CCKPS <3! want meetup with jacelyn and amirah and the rest and of course cheap FOOD. Anyway cckps produce(sounds wrong) clever pupils! hahaha geo is one of them. omg im like promoting my primary school or something

i miss primary school hmt class too. Okay I shall stop or you will say here she goes again. But I dont think you would right? But nevermind I stop here :D

xoxo

cause the sight of you freaks me

2008-08-19T21:06:00.003+08:00

I wake up late today at 745 :O hahaha if i never late i am not fadilah anymore ! :D next thing, I AM BLOODY SCARED TO PLAY SOFTBALL! :( I need to like search google or something to find ways to prevent me from being scared of the ball. I'm so so sorry iman haha. omg, i so suck at softball. I think i need to wear the helmet that covers your whole face then i think i can play properly. ahhh

Match at bukit batok sec! Their temporary school is so old school and vintage! 8D haha it was a good game. anyways, some of my juniors are damn lame man . Stop it seh.

[:

ohya when we want go home, we took the mrt and the train keep opening and closing the door for NINE times. AT ONE STATION. I find it so amusing hahaha

woohooo one more test to go!! which is social studies. Talking about social studies, did you guys watch the national day rally?

I watch it and the prime minister is quite a joker! :D the speech its quite interesting too. Actually i watch is so if my mind blank out during the test i can recall what the pm say. omg, i sould so political

maybe i will be the next president so watch out!
haha
btw GO OBAMA!

you offend my friend, you offend me. i dislike you very much. :( money cantt buy friends, female dog.

i saw myself on tv for a second

2008-08-18T16:54:00.004+08:00

Today is great! How can missing 6 periods of maths not be awesome ?

xoxo
happygirl.

its nice to be nice

2008-08-17T16:58:00.002+08:00

i am happy :D because..

Its raining! I like the smell , the breeze and the sound.This weekend is super tiring for me but i feel the achievement! :D Yesterday had netball flag day for the down syndrome association. Response were kind of good. I felt happy whenever people contributed to my tin. I went to clark quay to collect donations. So I stand in front of club marc, kinda of a posh shop. Think, rich people.

But quite a few just ignored me, feel like I talk to some wall. Is this karma? haha. But some are
reaaaaaaaaal nice ! I got 4 people donated $2 and 1 donated $5. Small amount also I happy cause my tin will be heavier :D then i realize that men usually have coins in their pockets while women have them in their wallets! :0

I was kind of exhausted . 6 hours. oh thanks to shireen i think who bought me slurpie! =D
ahhh after that went back to return the tin at 3pm

Went home, rest a while then go out again to go singapore expo cause its nisful syaaban so got some prayers and stuffs. There was soo many people!! Quite nice to see (:
My mum pointed out that she saw iman then i was like :O. haha then its really her . Alim buddies.
haha like real

so reach home close to 12 am.
drained.

today got some some of madrasah CIP. We had to give out oil and ghee to one whole blok . I was tired keep going up an down. Fasting somemore but yeah its all worth it cause help people mah (:

i was beat so i went home to sleep. There was CNA van and cameras. I think appear tv
haha

so long and wordy doubt anybody read this chunk but its okay , shiok sendiri (:

tabbletennis finals today ! My brother say if singapore get gold get public holiday, dont knw true or not.

(=
so i guess my weekends are well spent?
not looking forward to sch

xoxo

2008-08-15T22:18:00.002+08:00

friday :D

Guess what? I pass AMATHS which is sweeeeeeeet. Anyways,teachers are always nagging as usual, especially someone. :( she says she flexible but ya right. I now cant even put my hands on my chin which I always do . I shall just tolerate her nonsense for a few months. Since shes trying soo hard, I give her some face ah. I am nice afterall (: hah.

ohya, im kinda scared to play softball. :( been hit by the ball alot of times which is ironically HARD. I am not scared of the game , I am scared of the ball . The teacher say can lose your memory if kana hit by the ball. Which is damn freaky like imagine you forget what you learnt all this years. Ahh stop it scaring myself only .

other then the tests and people bullying me(ahem) the stuffs are pretty routined.

two more tests and im done for tests for this term (=

Saturday have netball CIP and Sunday have religious thing. ahhhh get it over and done with :D

xoxo

i want to gain weight baby

2008-08-11T14:50:00.003+08:00

random:

I cant imagine myself being not skinny/scrawny. Haha very random thoughts
ahhhhhhhhhh

I cant stop procrastinating again
damn.

:(

eh if i am schooling now . now is maths lessons!
wooo i should be happy today no school
(:

xoxo

screw school and you

2008-08-10T17:46:00.004+08:00

bloody hell!
I thought today was saturday :(
only got monday left to relax
which I dont think I can, cause got four tests :(

yesterday laughed a lot at the chalet. jokers man!
today went out to somewhere i detest .
geylang -_-

ahhhh i feel so dont know what
lazy
screw school

i dont want go school
i still want holidays
:(

bye
and sorry to those who i never reply your msges
XD
my mind in a mess
i shall blame it on hormones
haha

but i keep on running away

2008-08-08T16:09:00.008+08:00

I smile you laugh I look away
I sigh,you ask me why, I say
Its okay and I'm just feeling down

I really got my period, so that kinda explains it.
hm.

I don't know how i am feeling right now but its not good. :/
hope tomorrow will be better.

so many tests next week, bummer man.
sucks sucks sucks!
i feel so restless right now
crap.

xoxo,

lonelybutnotreallylonelygirl